A Letter from God

I love you my child~ that's what I want you to know! You can go every single day for the rest of your life not keeping my commandments & I wouldn't love you any less! Or you can go every single day for the rest of your life doing My work & I wouldn't love you any more!

You are my beloved. . . the apple of my eye. . . I send warm rays of sunshine onto your skin to let you feel the warmth of My love. . . when you hear the birds sing songs of worship to Me, it's Me whispering 'I love you!' When you see the purity of a child, their innocence & unwavering faith in a kid's eyes, it's Me reminding you I am with you! When you hear the waves rolling in, it's me demonstrating how powerful yet gentle I am.

When you feel a soft breeze, it is Me hugging you! Every day, if you just look around, you will see countless (although, I know the exact number) examples of how I am there!! Your Father just showing His love for all His dear children!

When it rains~ those are My tears. . . I am so happy. . . those are tears of joy! I am your proud Papa & with your ways I am well-pleased!! The rain also contains teardrops because I see so many of you hurting! I see wars, homelessness, murder, hunger, robbery, despair, hopelessness, lies, cheating, pain, people doing Godly acts not with a heart to please me, broken marriages, marriages where one or both stay & they shouldn't. . . I cry because my beloved creation has turned its back on me.

People often point out I hate divorce~ I hate ALL sin!

Instead of running to Me. . . to talk, to tell Me thank You, to worship Me. . . you blame Me~ still I love! I changeth not!! I am the same yesterday, today & forever!! As my love letter, that which you call the Bible, says I have collected each & every tear you cry & I have recorded each one in My book (Psalm 56:8).

All those lonely days & nights when you cried endless tears & felt like David, a man after My own heart, when he said, 'My tears have been my food both day & night (Psalm 42:3), I was there my beloved. I was comforting you, wrapping My arms around you, wiping away your tears and catching every single one.

Why did your loved one die so early or in such a terrible way? Why are my precious daughters (some of your moms & daughters) raped? Why do kids spend the first few years of their life, which turn out to be all the years they have, battling cancer before they die? Why are innocent people gunned down? Why do our children's blood flow down the hallway as a result of another school shooting? Why is the elderly beaten to death? Why are other elderly left in a nursing home to waste away before they die? Why all the natural disasters that kill so many & leave the survivors devastated?

I will not tell you~ because you would not understand anyway. Only know not everything that happens is 'My' plan or even what I want! Do you not know it saddens me and breaks my heart to see ANY of my children hurt, to see my children believe the enemy's lies and to hear their wails of pain? But I have given you free will my child.

My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts (Isaiah 55: 8 & 9).

Just know my dear child ALL things work together for the good (Romans 8:28) & it's My hope not to harm you, but to give you plans for a prosperous future (Jer. 29:11)! As you know, you see through a glass darkly~ Now you know things in part, but one day you will know even as also I am known (1 Cor. 13:12). Just remember my precious one, ALL the things you don't understand while you are here on earth, you will fully grasp one day up here (John 13:7).

Thank you for making time for Me. Oh how I love it so!! When you talk to Me, seek Me, worship Me, love on Me, there is a thunderous applause, a standing ovation in Heaven. When you extend the same mercy, grace, forgiveness & love to one another, as I have extended to you, the angels marvel, while I beam with pride!

I know this life can start to feel overwhelming at times, but remember. . . I made you not just to have fellowship with you & be your best friend, but I made you so I could help you (Matthew 11:28) because from the first thought of you. . . I have loved you~ deeply, unconditionally, passionately & relentlessly!

When you have faith & exercise the power I gave you when your brother Jesus came back home & left our Holy Spirit inside you. . . you WILL see whatever you ask be done when you ask in My name (John 14:13, Mark 11:23, Mark 9:23) & precious blood! There will be times I answer your prayers with a yes, a no, a later or in ways you can't even see, but all your requests are heard!

When you call on Jesus name, legions of demons flee (Deuteronomy 32:20 & James 2:19) and run from their assignment to destroy you! Their boss's most well-thought out schemes, centered around your personal weaknesses, are destroyed!! Satan is reminded of when what he thought was his best plan, killing Jesus, didn't work & that his place is under our feet!!

A lot of you are hurting, searching for peace, running yourselves ragged, trying to find happiness & joy. You won't find it through your job, through how much you own, your spouse, or someone you're dating or how much $$ you have. . . nor through status, power, respect or fame. . . no drug or love can bring you lasting joy and fulfillment~ it's only found through Me!

It doesn't matter what you've done, said or thought, come home dear child. . . come home (Luke 15: 11-32)!! We rejoice, dance, we let out shouts of joy, we clap, high-five, smile (Hebrews 12:1) ~ there is more rejoicing in Heaven over one sinner who repents than over 99 righteous persons who do not need to repent (Luke 15:7).

As long as you inhabit your earthly shell, you can start over with Me guiding you! Let no shame, pain, guilt, feelings of not being good enough or self-condemnation hold you back or the desire to 'get it together' before you come to me son/daughter. I will turn you/make you/transform you into a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come (2 Cor. 5:17)!

I hope I've been able to explain some of my ways to you. Whenever you want to talk, I'm just a thought or spoken word away.

I love you more than you could EVER fathom!!!
God

WaitinG for ForeveR

Greenie, every romantic comedy, every sweet movie/romance/love story, I see us, but this movie~ WaitinG for Forever~ was extra touchinG to me, so I took the time to watch, rewind, watch, rewind. . . . until I got every single quote from the movie that applied to us.

Maybe it is a little 'crazy,' but that's only fitting because it's been 2 years and I am CRAZY for you! Just wanted to share these with you~ it's time for me to get back to work!

FINLE~ Yo te Amo,
Sweet Lips

I firmly believe I am waiting for FOREVER with you!
Forever is what we have had since before Day 1~ let's walk in it.

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Talking. . . I don't remember us talking. I don't remember leading or following~ it was like we were inside of something bigger that took care of us, so we didn't have to worry about anything but flying high on a swing or running free.

I love her. I have always loved her. In my dreams, I breathe her in. I inhale her. I feel her in the blood of my heart.

When you follow Emma, how often do you see her? (Will's brother's wife) Will: It doesn't matter. . . it's just being around where she might be. That's plenty!

You look beautiful, but I would also say you look like you've been through the wringer.

OK, but if you won't come with me then I'm going to wrap myself around your leg & you're going to have to drag me everywhere with you for the rest of your life.

This is what I do for a living~ I show off for you!

Emma: What is happening to me? I feel like I'm going crazy. I know I said everything is fine, but everything is not fine! Why does everything have to be so hard? Why can't it just be easy? I just have to keep on pretending, pretending & pretending to keep myself from balling my eyes out forever.

Will: Maybe you have a lot to cry about.

Emma: You've been following me. Will: No, I go where you are. Emma: You've been following me! Will: No, I go where you are.

Will: I'm imagining a day where I get up and I know that I will not see you because you are far away. I will not see you. . . no chance! WILL NOT!

& Now, I'm imagining a day that I get up and I know that I MIGHT see you. . . MIGHT, could, maybe. Of those 2 days~ that's the day I want!! (smile) That's the day I choose.

Will: How could 1 step away from you ever be anything for me than a step in the wrong direction?

Dear Emma. Those two words, 'Dear Emma.' Truth is nothing. . . what you believe to be true is everythinG!!

Will: The main thinG I believe is that I will be with you forever. FOREVER! The reason why it's taken so long to write you is I have seen I have been a fool. I've spent my life fooling myself. Every letter I've ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else?

p.S. I may add some to this~ there are a couple of more quotes, but I'm not putting them up here yet.

In the FlameS . . .

I feel very good about where my life is . . . spiritually, my relationship with my family & inner circle, my personal growth and maturity, along with where my heart is~ honestly, it's and I have never been better! The exciting thing for me is through submitting to Christ & learning how to give Him Lordship over my life. . . I am experiencing more freedom, peace, happiness & joy than I ever have! I am only 32 & I am getting pretty good at this thing called life!

The biggest area of growth & improvement is learning how to be less selfish, embracing Christ's heart of servanthood & adopting it as my own!! I, truly, long to be the arms of the Body of Christ & of Him Himself~ I want to do more with my time, my gifts, my talents, my intelligence, my money & resources.

In some ways I wish I could completely erase the past 10 years . . . similar to a rehabilitated inmate, I simply wasn't ready for the freedom that thrusts itself on me after college. The devil's arms were opened wide & he resembled a long lost friend. I ran as hard & as far as my little legs could to take me away from the Father. . . it's just a blessing I didn't do more heinous/vile/terrible things than I did. Oh, there have been PLENTY of times my actions didn't reflect someone who knew Jesus at all~ there is no doubt about that & I have done many, many things I am far from proud of!

But at least I didn't defile my body & break God's heart more than I did. . . I am grateful for that. Would Paul have ever become a bold, unapologetic believer/disciple if he never was Saul, so in some ways I believe my 'prodigal son' behavior was necessary in becoming who I've just started to be!

Another area I would like to improve in is empathy. . . it's not that I don't hurt when I see hurt in someone else's eyes or hear hurt in someone else's voice, it's just I want to hurt more! I want my reaction & genuine, heartfelt words to help them carry whatever emotional load that is threatening to cripple them or even worse crush them!! There are so many people who are hurting, lost, have floundering souls and/or lives. I want to meet people right smack dab in the middle of their pain/deep sadness, speaking words of hope, words of truth & words of life into their life, their situation and predicament!!

I know I do not have all the answers, but I am SO thankfuL I can point them to the ONE who is Not just the way-maker. . . He is the way. . . Not just the truth-teller. . . He is the truth. . . Not just the restorer of our lives. . .He is restoration. . . Not just the intimate lover of our souls. . . He is LOVE!!

No I do not have a wife. . . Not married and have not realized one of the biggest dreams of my life~ that of being a father/Dad and I am 32, feeling like life is slowly slipping through my fingers, but I know just like Elijah was prepared at Cherith. . . I am being prepared and until I am ready, and even more so when He wants these desires to come to fruition & these dreams to be realized, trying to make them happen is laboring in vain!

Another area He has revealed to me I need to improve in my pathway to ultimate peace, joy contentment & gain greater discipline in is controlling my emotions. Too often I am a ship too easily tossed about the waves when I have not the bestower of peace, but He who IS PEACE! I react instead of doing what He has implored me to do~ just BE STILL!!

I have the victory! I have the resurrection power inside me! I have, not only the ability but, the innate tendancy to OVERCOME anything the devil or this sometimes cruel life can throw at me!! I MUST walk in it!

I have been put through the flames. . . not to be consumed by them, but to be refined~ may my flesh be burned up, incinerated until ALL that remains is Christ! I want to be surrounded/engulfed in flames 'til NONE of ME remains! As a believer, I can expect to be 'under the knife' . . . until the work He started in me is completed (Phil. 1:6) I will be on the table. In fact, even if it's uncomfortable, HURTS & is extremely painful, I want it!! As the deer paneth for the water, so my souL/my spirit-man desires that!

See, we may be under the scalpel, but our Surgeon has the same hands that not only hung the stars, but knows them by name! The same hands that carved the mountains, filled the streams, rivers, lakes & oceans!! The very same hands that placed the sun/the moon, in the sky, is performing my surgery! If that isn't exciting/amazing news. . . NOTHING is!

Those nail-pierced hands are taking out of me sin, lust, junk, selfishness, pride, hurt, envy, feelings of inadequacy, poison & death and is replacing it with humility & the fruits of the spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness & self-control! AMAZING!!

Just like Shadrach, Meshach & Abednego. . . We have the fourth 'Man' in the furnace, so we can be rest-assured ANY flames allowed in our lives are not meant to destroy us. . . but to test our faith & refine us! It is never a comfortable thing to be in the flames, but as sure as oxygen is needed to breathe~ it is necessary! Not only are we refined, but it's in the furnace where we develop a deep dependency on Jesus. . . it's in the flames God shows us He not only can handle, but WILL handle whatever is going on in our lives. . . it's in the flames, we discover our strength is NOT enough. . . That the devil and the storms this life can throw our way are too much to withstand on our own sufficiency!

But for the blood! God, the King of Kings & Lord of Lords, fights for us & works endlessly & tirelessly on our behalf. . . especially in the flames! In the flames our waves of doubt are washed away & THE Maker proves Himself to us as omnipotent, omniscient, ALL-capable, lacking NO wisdom, as He is wisdom. . . without Him, wisdom would be foolishness! Yes, in the flames. . . it's where we say jump & God who loves us so much that He, who is awesome, proves to us how HIGH He can jump even though He isn't obligated to. . . remember, He is the Potter we are clay pots!

Our doubt turns into the Lord's own personal trophy room of faithfulness! So, bring on the flames. . . He allows us to doubt, because He knows our faith WILL be strengthened. . . in the flames!

On our spiritual peaks, we easily are filled with gratitude. . . but without the valleys, we would never fully grasp the sweetness of being on top of the mountain! A peak is a hug from God's mighty, love, inpenetratable arms, but the flames. . . they are the sweetest kiss we will ever know~ a sweet, soft, loving, passionate, tender kiss from the lips of God!!!